august 11th 2025

at the leftmost is a redraw of 2024. I still had the original video i used as reference and i felt like my proper likeness wasn't captured in the original. the other two were referenced from a video i had taken a day prior. I looked in the mirror a month ago before a shower and realized i could suddenly see definition in my arms...! I haven't done any rigorous exercise and i've never been an athletic person so this is basically all thanks to testosterone. Strangers also gender me correctly about 80% of the time now, which is insane, still can't believe it. At this point, I think the biggest point of confusion for people is my name but I'm hesitant to let go of it. Which is funny because when I was growing up I really disliked it. I'm also going back to college at the end of the month at the age of 22. excited.

my drawing abilities have visibly improved too. Lines feel much more confident and i'm able to play with shape more naturally.

january 19th 2024

by this time I had dropped out of college, went back home, and started working at a weird fast-casual restaurant. my one year anniversary since starting testosterone had just recently passed and I was finally beginning to see a physical change in my body. the most obvious was thicker body hair but i was also beginning to see a change in my hip area and legs. strangers were also starting to gender me correctly which was a huge (but pleasant) shock the first few times

september 8th 2021

at the time i drew this, i was freshly 18, a freshman in college, riddled with dysphoria and lonely. but! being at college meant privacy from the prying eyes of parents and I was able to buy my first binder for dirt cheap online. it was the kind that clasped in the middle and definitely wasn't safe for daily wear but it was all i could get my hands on. I spent most of my freshman year researching how to get on hrt, how much i would need to save up to get top surgery, and rehearsing how to break the news to my parents. I wouldn't start testosterone until 2023, but this self-portrait was a sort of promise to myself that i would transition no matter how long it took.